Last night I went to my first Rollerderby match. It was pretty much awesome, except for the extreme heat and dead air in a building full to capacity with no breeze despite the 4 giant fans blowing. It was miserable. I literally felt like I was taking a shower in my own sweat. Grossest shower ever and I've seen a lot of gross campsite showers. But that is really my only complaint, otherwise I had a really good time. Two of my favoite friends came along with me and we were all trying to come up with our Rollerderby names, my is tentatively set at Calamity Cam. Sarah couldn't come up with one and Beth thought of hers later in the night, Betsy O'Killagain! Freaking awesome name. As far as the match went I really didn't know what to expect. I have seen the moive "Whip It" and was all ready to see some hair pulling and elbows to the mouth, knocked out teeth and all kinds of nastiness. It was actually much tamer then I thought. Don't get me wrong, I don't think there was a single girl who didn't fall or get knocked down, but everyone playing seemed very sportsmanly like. No one played dirty that I could see which is impressive since girls have been known to be catty on occasion (so I'm told). Most of the spills looked like they could have been pretty painful had it not been for the helmets, elbow/knee gaurds, and mouth pieces. The one girl that I knew that sent me the invite on facebook is the only one who actually got hurt, and hurt pretty good from the looks of it. She got knocked down and two other girls fell on her. I think she messed up her knee but how badly I'm not sure. The sound system was a little choppy at times but I was able to keep up with what was going on for the most part. I think they have another match next month and you can bet that as long as I'm in town that I'll be there wearing a suit made out of ice to keep cool or at least dark clothing so you can't see all the many many sweat stains I will be sporting. Blah.
People tell me that I would be good at rollerderby, and they might be right, I do tend to get angry a lot and could use a release. However, while I am not opposed to throwing a punch or two I am not a fan of being punched. I bruise so easily people would think I was being abused. Plus, I have my blogging for my anger outlet. There's nothing better then being able to write some long bitchy rant about something or someone and then have people tell me how much they enjoyed it! Of course if you see one of these rants in person you'll probably tell me to chill out. And I will tell you to suck it because venting is healthy. :) After rollerderby I went out with a couple girlfriends for some $1 Natty Light in keeping theme with the evening. Came home, messed around on facebook and hit the hay. I was going to blog last night but was too tired so I waited until today and I am wondering if you have noticed a difference in this blog compared to all the others. Now you may stop and ask yourself, what seems different? Less spelling and grammar mistakes? Possibly. Not getting off track so often? Maybe. Well the biggest difference is that this is the first time I've ever blogged sober! Yes. First time. I usually feel most expresive later in the evening after a few cocktails, I think it's when I do some of my best work. You tell me though. Did you notice a difference? Was this blog more boring or less entertaining than usual? Because I don't mind continuing to drink for all you dear readers. Let me know what you think about "sober blogging", are you a fan? Better, worse, or about the same?
Enjoy the rest of your Sunday. I for one have been out of my recliner for far to long and need to continue my vegging now. Till next time.
Sunday, June 27, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
Change of Subject
My initial plan for this blog was to do a weekend wrap-up. However, due to the corse of events this night has taken I have a new topic on my mind. I will still do a quick recap so keep up. Friday I went to work, and if I haven't explained what my summer job is it is basically office work. File keeping and data entry and other odds and ends. It is not what you would call exciting but it is what you would call "paying the bills and then some". I can handle hours of boring when being paid well for it. But, Friday I was still pretty tired so I didn't work as long as I should have. I came home and immediantely started to clean house for the party on Sat. My sister and a friend of ours arrived in town around 7ish. We had some dinner and went out to "Cheers" or my Wichita version of it. Stayed out too late and was crazy tired on Saturday but totally rocked my party anyhoo. I wasn't sure what to expect since the timeline I specified wasn't really specific but it ended up being a good time. Thank god for Slip N Slides. Ended up downtown and had a way better time then I thought I would. I only say that because of how tired I was. Went home, slept in, got up and was headed to a Mexican restaurant about 20 min after waking. I don't know about you but the first thing on my mind after waking up late on a Sunday afternoon, is not Mexican food. But once again being the champ I am I was able to handle lunch like as previously stated, a champ. After that my recliner and I got to be super good friends for the rest of the day. And that pretty much sums up the weekend.
So, now on to the topic that is weighing on me this evening. TV. I used to think I didn't watch that much tv because recording shows on your DVD can be very deceptive in how much time you think you spend watching tv. I guess I watch a lot of shows, I could do a daily break down for you and it may come to that one of these blogs, but tonight I want to focus on three shows. As of monday night only one of these show is still on, the one that promted this blog topic had it's series finale tonight. The three shows are: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Saving Grace, and Bones. The common theme for me with these shows is having a female lead that I can identify with. And not just, "oh what a pretty, strong, female, on a show that is written sorta well." I'm talking about really strongly identifying with the three female leads in my own personal life.
I will start with Temperance "Bones" Brennan from the show Bones. I have been watching this show for 5 seasons now and cannot wait for the 6th to start this fall. The character Bones is a very straight forward no nonsense, very analytical and logical. She is an anthropologist and because of how logical and literal she is she doesn't believe in God/Jesus or the whole religion thing. Logically I don't really see how religion works either. There is some unknown all powerful diety that we are just supposed to believe in or else? i have issues with that. But her character is also very smart and can take care of herself. smart as in genius smart which i am not but i'm certainly not stupid, and can take care of herself as in physically. she knows how to defend herself and use a gun. i need to learn these things. generally i don't have to defend myself physically (thank goodness) but verbally i've had to deal with things. sometimes i think it would be nice if someone jumped in on my behalf but that usually doesn't happen since my friends know i can "take care of myself". i am also the one who can, and will, get rid of the lame ass guys who try and come up to my group of girlfriends at a bar with an even lamer line. i am the girl guys hate to approach. unless you are stupid good looking. so, let it be said that from here on out only guys i deem stupid good looking may approach. moving on...
The next character is Grace Hanadarko from the show Saving Grace which ended Monday night. OH MY GOD I COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MORE PISSED ABOUT HOW THAT SHOW ENDED!!! i will not go into details other than to say i was so let down. the character grace is in her forties, single, doesn't believe in god. she gets a last chance angel named earl who tries to help win her over to god. Grace comes from a catholic family and she is the only one who doesn't believe. she lost a sister in the Oklahoma City bombing. she is detective. anyway, once again the character is a strong female who can take care of herself and use a gun and doesn't believe in god. this time though there are more questions about why if there is a god does he let bad things happen, and questions about faith, and all the rules. i really like how the writers on the show dealt with the answers. i personally think they did a good job speaking to believers and nonbelievers alike. i don't like talking about religion with most people because most people don't know how to have a conversation without being illogical or disrespectful or a handful of other what have yous. i like to think i'm a spiritual person open to getting answers from all walks of life. i don't question things too often because i just don't see the point. i live up to a moral code that i feel is sufficient. i love grace's devil may care attitude and how she loves life and her friends, and will do anything for them. she has family issues, who doesn't, but in the end as selfish as she may seem she is actually very selfless. stupid rushed canceled ending. i was literally in tears i was so mad and dissapointed and sad about the ending. that show comforted me in a way because i felt like i was getting answers to questions i didn't know i had and then the ending....blah.
Finally, and may i add my most favorite. Buffy Summers!!! if you've met me for even five minutes there is a good chance you know of my love for all things Buffy. She is the ultimate female character in strength. She actually does not believe in using guns (because generally speaking you can't kill a demon with a bullet. FYI). and the thing i love the most maybe is that she is not crazy smart. she is just an average girl trying to survive and figure out what she wants to do with her life (you know, besides being the chosen one and all that) and be happy. all i want is to be happy in life. it's all my dad wanted for me and i promised him that i would be happy and there is no way i'm letting him down. as far as the religion aspect goes, well hello, she literally wrestles her demons. religion is not really directly discussed on the show, it's usually done in metaphor. but, crazy awesome super well written metaphor. love love love that show. and pretty much all things Joss Whedon.
i started this blog two nights and some odd glasses of wine ago. i was in a differnet frame of mind that night than i am now. i'm happier tonight than i was monday night. my neck is killing me and i'm tired and those are my biggest problems at the moment. i know that won't last but for now it feels really good to just feel happy and content. i wonder how long i can carry on with this good feeling. i'm going to try and make it last through the weekend. maybe i'll even start watching the Buffy series again. I haven't watched if for a few years, i think it's time for a refresher.
so, i guess no point really other than, yay happiness.
hope you are all happy tonight as well.
So, now on to the topic that is weighing on me this evening. TV. I used to think I didn't watch that much tv because recording shows on your DVD can be very deceptive in how much time you think you spend watching tv. I guess I watch a lot of shows, I could do a daily break down for you and it may come to that one of these blogs, but tonight I want to focus on three shows. As of monday night only one of these show is still on, the one that promted this blog topic had it's series finale tonight. The three shows are: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Saving Grace, and Bones. The common theme for me with these shows is having a female lead that I can identify with. And not just, "oh what a pretty, strong, female, on a show that is written sorta well." I'm talking about really strongly identifying with the three female leads in my own personal life.
I will start with Temperance "Bones" Brennan from the show Bones. I have been watching this show for 5 seasons now and cannot wait for the 6th to start this fall. The character Bones is a very straight forward no nonsense, very analytical and logical. She is an anthropologist and because of how logical and literal she is she doesn't believe in God/Jesus or the whole religion thing. Logically I don't really see how religion works either. There is some unknown all powerful diety that we are just supposed to believe in or else? i have issues with that. But her character is also very smart and can take care of herself. smart as in genius smart which i am not but i'm certainly not stupid, and can take care of herself as in physically. she knows how to defend herself and use a gun. i need to learn these things. generally i don't have to defend myself physically (thank goodness) but verbally i've had to deal with things. sometimes i think it would be nice if someone jumped in on my behalf but that usually doesn't happen since my friends know i can "take care of myself". i am also the one who can, and will, get rid of the lame ass guys who try and come up to my group of girlfriends at a bar with an even lamer line. i am the girl guys hate to approach. unless you are stupid good looking. so, let it be said that from here on out only guys i deem stupid good looking may approach. moving on...
The next character is Grace Hanadarko from the show Saving Grace which ended Monday night. OH MY GOD I COULD NOT HAVE BEEN MORE PISSED ABOUT HOW THAT SHOW ENDED!!! i will not go into details other than to say i was so let down. the character grace is in her forties, single, doesn't believe in god. she gets a last chance angel named earl who tries to help win her over to god. Grace comes from a catholic family and she is the only one who doesn't believe. she lost a sister in the Oklahoma City bombing. she is detective. anyway, once again the character is a strong female who can take care of herself and use a gun and doesn't believe in god. this time though there are more questions about why if there is a god does he let bad things happen, and questions about faith, and all the rules. i really like how the writers on the show dealt with the answers. i personally think they did a good job speaking to believers and nonbelievers alike. i don't like talking about religion with most people because most people don't know how to have a conversation without being illogical or disrespectful or a handful of other what have yous. i like to think i'm a spiritual person open to getting answers from all walks of life. i don't question things too often because i just don't see the point. i live up to a moral code that i feel is sufficient. i love grace's devil may care attitude and how she loves life and her friends, and will do anything for them. she has family issues, who doesn't, but in the end as selfish as she may seem she is actually very selfless. stupid rushed canceled ending. i was literally in tears i was so mad and dissapointed and sad about the ending. that show comforted me in a way because i felt like i was getting answers to questions i didn't know i had and then the ending....blah.
Finally, and may i add my most favorite. Buffy Summers!!! if you've met me for even five minutes there is a good chance you know of my love for all things Buffy. She is the ultimate female character in strength. She actually does not believe in using guns (because generally speaking you can't kill a demon with a bullet. FYI). and the thing i love the most maybe is that she is not crazy smart. she is just an average girl trying to survive and figure out what she wants to do with her life (you know, besides being the chosen one and all that) and be happy. all i want is to be happy in life. it's all my dad wanted for me and i promised him that i would be happy and there is no way i'm letting him down. as far as the religion aspect goes, well hello, she literally wrestles her demons. religion is not really directly discussed on the show, it's usually done in metaphor. but, crazy awesome super well written metaphor. love love love that show. and pretty much all things Joss Whedon.
i started this blog two nights and some odd glasses of wine ago. i was in a differnet frame of mind that night than i am now. i'm happier tonight than i was monday night. my neck is killing me and i'm tired and those are my biggest problems at the moment. i know that won't last but for now it feels really good to just feel happy and content. i wonder how long i can carry on with this good feeling. i'm going to try and make it last through the weekend. maybe i'll even start watching the Buffy series again. I haven't watched if for a few years, i think it's time for a refresher.
so, i guess no point really other than, yay happiness.
hope you are all happy tonight as well.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
A Quick Summing Up of the Day....
So last night i did infact go out for a few drinks at a friends house, then came home and blogged which left me feeling pretty tired most of the day. but like any great champ i totally nailed this day in awesomeness. i got my first bday text from my brother a little after 7:30am, thanks alot for that brother! was able to get back to sleep for a bit then woke up just before 9:30am. first thing i did was grab a cold soda and check my facebook, of course! so much birthday love! it all makes me feel so good and so loved. thank you all! i checked my facebook so many times throughout the day, it was a lot of fun reading everything. anyway, after checking fb i had to hurry up and meet my friend Laura who i walk with on thursdays. We did a slightly shorter version of our walk today because i wanted to be sure i was home in time to get cleaned up so i wouldn't be late to my bday pedi. god i love those things. i recommend going to Nails Today at 21st and amidon, they do a bitchn' job for $20 bucks. grabbed some Taco Pronto on the way home (and just realized all the promoting i'm doing here. i should be getting some free tacos or something.) and then basically sat on my ass for awhile. i ment to get some housework done but i was needing a nap like crazy. i did not however take the nap because i am still a very vivacious young gal who doesn't need a nap on her 30th bday, thank you very much! had to deal with some personal stuff, nothing too serious mind you, just part of the moving on stage that comes with ending a relationship. then back to sitting on my lovely ass and finally dinner at Outback (there i go again with the promoting) with my bestest mom and brother. i also got a craft light, a knitting book called "Pints and Purls", how cute is that, and a sweet ass puzzle that has a knitting theme to it that you can be sure i'll start tomorrow. and speaking of tomorrow i will now take my sweet young vivacious self to bed, pay no attention to what time this is posted. :)
probably not the most exciting blog ever but i thought i would share my day with everyone because dispite the lack of drama and excitement, this really turned out to be one of the good ones. if i came off sounding like i was scard or apprehensive about turning 30 i didn't mean to. i was anxious a few weeks ago but now i'm good and i expect nothing but smooth sailing. so be sure to sail on with me! ha! how corny was that, i couldn't resist. that was for you Beth D.
good night all, don't forget to leave a comment or two if you wish.
camille
probably not the most exciting blog ever but i thought i would share my day with everyone because dispite the lack of drama and excitement, this really turned out to be one of the good ones. if i came off sounding like i was scard or apprehensive about turning 30 i didn't mean to. i was anxious a few weeks ago but now i'm good and i expect nothing but smooth sailing. so be sure to sail on with me! ha! how corny was that, i couldn't resist. that was for you Beth D.
good night all, don't forget to leave a comment or two if you wish.
camille
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
The Quick and Dirty
It is 12:48am on June 17th 2010, which means.......I am 30!!!!!! For better or for worse this is where i am in my life now whether i like it or not. i choose both. liking it and not liking it that is. two weeks ago i made the decision to break up with a man that i love more than anything, but it turns out that we want different things in life which was actually not a surprise to me. in hingsight i guess i always knew that our relationship came with a expiration date. ask me if that made things easier. NO. it did not. i do think (hope) the hardest part is over, all the tears tear tears. i do not want to start dating yet but i am ready to keep on going on with my life. go me. has anyone seen the movie "julie and julia"? i watched that movie with my mom - whom i live with - just the other night. we both liked it. shocking you may think. well, the julie lady in the movie is in a job that she hates but she needs and it pay the bills, similary i can relate. she just turns thirty in the movie and is semi-lost about her career. relating again. she has a (according to the movie version) wonderful husband, cannot relate.
this may be the first time reading my blog for some people for others they may be thinking, hey it's about time we've been telling you forever to start writing again!!
well, let me explain two things. first, i will not lie, i am a bit of a narcissist and don't hate the attention. second, the reason it has taken me so long to get back into writing/blogging is because i always felt like i needed a topic/theme/plot what have you. and with my new found decade now freshly upon me i guess i found my default topic.....me. well, duh!! you would think. to which i would have responded, who the hell wants to hear about my life. and to which i would answer, i still don't know. but, in this day and age i figure as long as i keep it about myself and my life and my goals and take it a day/year at a time i just might find a fan or two.
and that ladies and gentlemen is the topic/theme. here we are day one, just turned 30 an hour ago. i live with my mom, i am three credit hours away from my associates degree, i LOVE knitting, i LOVE painting, these are things i would like to make a living doing somehow. but, i also know i have to be practical. so, my goal for year one in this "new blog" is to finish my associate degree. baby steps you know, i only have six months till the end of the year and according to just about everyone of my smart ass friends (who i absolutly could not live without!!) i need to take it easy in my new fragile state. HA!
so the story will continue from here but please go back and read my old blogs, some of them are pretty good i think. oh, and i have to admit that i did finally try sushi. i was feeling exceptionally brave one night at sumo. stay tuned! and please please please leave feed back. i want to hear it all. good, bad, and down right nasty. tell a friend to read also. i'm on facebook and so is my knitting sight. The Pattern Pub. look it up.
HAPPY FUCKING 30TH TO ME!!!! HOLY SHIT!
this may be the first time reading my blog for some people for others they may be thinking, hey it's about time we've been telling you forever to start writing again!!
well, let me explain two things. first, i will not lie, i am a bit of a narcissist and don't hate the attention. second, the reason it has taken me so long to get back into writing/blogging is because i always felt like i needed a topic/theme/plot what have you. and with my new found decade now freshly upon me i guess i found my default topic.....me. well, duh!! you would think. to which i would have responded, who the hell wants to hear about my life. and to which i would answer, i still don't know. but, in this day and age i figure as long as i keep it about myself and my life and my goals and take it a day/year at a time i just might find a fan or two.
and that ladies and gentlemen is the topic/theme. here we are day one, just turned 30 an hour ago. i live with my mom, i am three credit hours away from my associates degree, i LOVE knitting, i LOVE painting, these are things i would like to make a living doing somehow. but, i also know i have to be practical. so, my goal for year one in this "new blog" is to finish my associate degree. baby steps you know, i only have six months till the end of the year and according to just about everyone of my smart ass friends (who i absolutly could not live without!!) i need to take it easy in my new fragile state. HA!
so the story will continue from here but please go back and read my old blogs, some of them are pretty good i think. oh, and i have to admit that i did finally try sushi. i was feeling exceptionally brave one night at sumo. stay tuned! and please please please leave feed back. i want to hear it all. good, bad, and down right nasty. tell a friend to read also. i'm on facebook and so is my knitting sight. The Pattern Pub. look it up.
HAPPY FUCKING 30TH TO ME!!!! HOLY SHIT!
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