So i'm not sure what tonights topic is going to be about. If i had to guess right now i'd say this is gonna be pretty random. So, I'll start with what's on my mind.
Friends. I love them. What would I do without them. Well, this week I would have been in a better mood maybe. Fuck man. the truth is a hard thing to hear, but it's especially hard when you already know the truth and without asking someone feels the need to drive your insecurites home. i've been bummed out since saturday night. i know it will eventually pass but right now i'm just sad. you get to the point where there isn't a point in arguing or even trying to reason with a person because they are telling you how irrational or defensive you are being when really i could barely get a word in edgewise. P.S. i am an angry person and i get defensive. i also hate holding shit in so if something comes up i'm the kind of person who will get "worked up" about something for about 10 min (sometimes it will take all night, but that particular bitchfest was probably planned) or so till i'm done venting. but, when i'm done venting...i'm done. so, as a warning label to any potential friends out there, beware, when attacked i tend to get defensive. i haven't maimed anyone yet but apparently it's just a matter of time. i guess i should also thank all of you out there who have found it in you to be my friend however difficult i am. WOW! thank you all for attending my pity party. whoosh. i had to get that off my chest, and coinsidently i am now pretty much over it. also, it was in no way directed at anyone who reads my blog. i don't think the person who this is in reference to reads this. at least i think. moving on.

i'm looking for workout tips and healthy eating tips. lay it on me.

i got a lot of really good responses to my story. thank you all for reading it. i was at a stand still with it but i think i can take it further now. anyone who hasn't read it and would like to, it is posted on my facebook page under my Notes. for anyone who has read it, it hasn't changed i will let you know when/if it does.

i had a rocking spring break. mom and i did a lot of shit around the house that i know she's been wanting to do for awhile. we had a good time.

so, that's really about it. i'd love to hear some feedback about this or any other postings. till next time......i'll keep being awesome if you keep being awesome.

first and foremost, i totally remembered my original password just out of the blue the other day. and let me just say it was completely random and it's amazing i ever remembered it in the first place.
second, i finished my story for my creative writing class. i would post a link here for it but i'm not quite sure how to properly link something from my Microsoft Word to here (HELP). in the mean time i will try to post it as a note on facebook, so look for it there. i have already turned it in for class, will hopefully get some feedback from that special group of people by next thursday (3/12). but, i still want feedback from anyone else who wants to lay it out there. a few people have said that i should keep working on it and try to get it published which to me means, dolla dolla bills ya'll. i'm sorry that was out of line. but, i do like money. so, please give me your free thoughts so that i may make a buck in these tough financial times ;)
third, i think my back up car, the Taurus(which really doesn't even deserve a capital T), is starting to overheat. fuck.
fourth, i was pondering on what to write about for my next (this) blog. one of the things i thought about was the amazing, AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, lack of driving skills most people in Wichita have. i got my first speeding ticket ever about a month ago. why a month ago? is it becasuse i never speed? infatically no. or is it because i tend to keep my head out of my ass when i drive? i think yes. now, i'm not perfect(you heard it here first folks), but i do know the basics and fundamentals. believe me this will be it's own post someday and i will warn you now that it will be so full of profanity that you may need to question your own moral center before reading it. you've been warned. it's coming.
5th. if you can count to ten then you can find a book in the Non-Fiction section of the library. leave me alone i want to listen to my iPod. by the way, check out the podcast "Uhh Yeah Dude". super funny.
6th. i didn't even have 6th until about 20 seconds ago when my sister just drunk called me. i have so many questions now. alas, i could not understand anything other than KU lost tonight (bummer) and that she really reallly realllllllllly reaaaaaaaalllllly loves me. shift the slurs where you must. i love you too seester!!
7th. i've had several people comment to me about reading my last post but i have had only one person, Houng (shout out), leave a comment. um.........i'm gonna go ahead and speak to everyone with my big girl pants on. i wear them quite frequently. please leave me some feedback because i am in the dark here. oh and how could i forget, shout out RandyH and KristenE. let me know what you think. what direction should i take this in. should it be directed? i love feedback and i can't a)get better or b)change anything without the info.
8th)there was an 8 when i started the 7. it's gone now. i'm on my way to facebook to Note my story. check it out. wear your big kid pants when you leave feedback becasue i want to know.
thank you.
if i don't say it enough i want to say it now. i love you all. tell your friends about me. if you think i'm worthy. if not, ...tell me why.
loves
Camille