So i'm not sure what tonights topic is going to be about. If i had to guess right now i'd say this is gonna be pretty random. So, I'll start with what's on my mind.
Friends. I love them. What would I do without them. Well, this week I would have been in a better mood maybe. Fuck man. the truth is a hard thing to hear, but it's especially hard when you already know the truth and without asking someone feels the need to drive your insecurites home. i've been bummed out since saturday night. i know it will eventually pass but right now i'm just sad. you get to the point where there isn't a point in arguing or even trying to reason with a person because they are telling you how irrational or defensive you are being when really i could barely get a word in edgewise. P.S. i am an angry person and i get defensive. i also hate holding shit in so if something comes up i'm the kind of person who will get "worked up" about something for about 10 min (sometimes it will take all night, but that particular bitchfest was probably planned) or so till i'm done venting. but, when i'm done venting...i'm done. so, as a warning label to any potential friends out there, beware, when attacked i tend to get defensive. i haven't maimed anyone yet but apparently it's just a matter of time. i guess i should also thank all of you out there who have found it in you to be my friend however difficult i am. WOW! thank you all for attending my pity party. whoosh. i had to get that off my chest, and coinsidently i am now pretty much over it. also, it was in no way directed at anyone who reads my blog. i don't think the person who this is in reference to reads this. at least i think. moving on.

i'm looking for workout tips and healthy eating tips. lay it on me.

i got a lot of really good responses to my story. thank you all for reading it. i was at a stand still with it but i think i can take it further now. anyone who hasn't read it and would like to, it is posted on my facebook page under my Notes. for anyone who has read it, it hasn't changed i will let you know when/if it does.

i had a rocking spring break. mom and i did a lot of shit around the house that i know she's been wanting to do for awhile. we had a good time.

so, that's really about it. i'd love to hear some feedback about this or any other postings. till next time......i'll keep being awesome if you keep being awesome.

first and foremost, i totally remembered my original password just out of the blue the other day. and let me just say it was completely random and it's amazing i ever remembered it in the first place.
second, i finished my story for my creative writing class. i would post a link here for it but i'm not quite sure how to properly link something from my Microsoft Word to here (HELP). in the mean time i will try to post it as a note on facebook, so look for it there. i have already turned it in for class, will hopefully get some feedback from that special group of people by next thursday (3/12). but, i still want feedback from anyone else who wants to lay it out there. a few people have said that i should keep working on it and try to get it published which to me means, dolla dolla bills ya'll. i'm sorry that was out of line. but, i do like money. so, please give me your free thoughts so that i may make a buck in these tough financial times ;)
third, i think my back up car, the Taurus(which really doesn't even deserve a capital T), is starting to overheat. fuck.
fourth, i was pondering on what to write about for my next (this) blog. one of the things i thought about was the amazing, AMAZING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!, lack of driving skills most people in Wichita have. i got my first speeding ticket ever about a month ago. why a month ago? is it becasuse i never speed? infatically no. or is it because i tend to keep my head out of my ass when i drive? i think yes. now, i'm not perfect(you heard it here first folks), but i do know the basics and fundamentals. believe me this will be it's own post someday and i will warn you now that it will be so full of profanity that you may need to question your own moral center before reading it. you've been warned. it's coming.
5th. if you can count to ten then you can find a book in the Non-Fiction section of the library. leave me alone i want to listen to my iPod. by the way, check out the podcast "Uhh Yeah Dude". super funny.
6th. i didn't even have 6th until about 20 seconds ago when my sister just drunk called me. i have so many questions now. alas, i could not understand anything other than KU lost tonight (bummer) and that she really reallly realllllllllly reaaaaaaaalllllly loves me. shift the slurs where you must. i love you too seester!!
7th. i've had several people comment to me about reading my last post but i have had only one person, Houng (shout out), leave a comment. um.........i'm gonna go ahead and speak to everyone with my big girl pants on. i wear them quite frequently. please leave me some feedback because i am in the dark here. oh and how could i forget, shout out RandyH and KristenE. let me know what you think. what direction should i take this in. should it be directed? i love feedback and i can't a)get better or b)change anything without the info.
8th)there was an 8 when i started the 7. it's gone now. i'm on my way to facebook to Note my story. check it out. wear your big kid pants when you leave feedback becasue i want to know.
thank you.
if i don't say it enough i want to say it now. i love you all. tell your friends about me. if you think i'm worthy. if not, ...tell me why.
loves
Camille

if you're still reading this, you are beyond awesome.

I just read my last blog. What a bunch of crap. I just now had to reset my password to even log on becasue i couldn't remember the first one. I will say this, I remember that it was a pretty obscure passoword and I thought I should give myself a pat on the back for coming up with it, but to be honest I think I just looked at the magazine on the chair next to me at the time and went with a pretty close veriation of it. God I'm a freaking genious. But, back to the whole me not blogging for months. I don't really have a good excuse other than laziness and forgetfulness. I also partly just have no idea what to blog about. I've worried about getting too personal, which holds me back, and then i worry about being to vague and uninteresting and that holds me back. What i've come to realize is this, not only will i never be (hopefully) any kind of celebrity blogger, i don't want to be. so, the only other thing i know how to write about is me. once upon a time, say early 2000ish, i told my mom in an offhand sort of way that i wanted to do a documentary someday. about myself maybe. i will never forget what she said.... wait for it...." who would be interested in seeing a movie about your life?" ouch. ok, but, she wasn't saying this to be hurtful. in fact she's quite right. and that's what i've thought about so much. but again, here's what i've come to either understand, accept, give in to, 'other', or a combination of all....i may not have the most interesting life, but i can write it like i do :) short of that i can bitch and moan about things and probably always find at least one person who will take my side if necessary. and to that i say, vindication. :)

To sum up the last few months.......Matt and I are still together. if i'm going to stay true to this new leaf i've turned i will start with saying that i have really held back writing about my relationship for several reasons. 1. whatever is written down is somehow always permanent. especially this day and age (thank you Facebook for making the world even more paranoid than it was). 2. i've always been kinda supersticious. in this case i worry that writing about my relationship will somehow doom it. so, point in fact, if matt and i end up breaking up ever in the history of the world i now blame all the rest of the world. 3. i'm sure there are more points, like an actual 3 possibly even a 4 and 5 but i'm just gonna jump ahead and come back to those when and if i see fit.

so, we are doing good. we have our problems as any couple does, but i'd say overall we are pretty solid. a few weeks ago we booked a trip to hike/camp the Tahoe Rim Trail at Lake Tahoe. it's 165 miles of hiking, we are hoping to do it within 12 to 14 days. during this time, i will probably experience some of the most disgusting times in my life. for instance, i don't know when or if i'll be able to shower, we are bringing a spade to dig holes for pooing, just those two things alone sound bad right? well, here is by far the worst. two weeks...two freaking weeks of not being able to shave my legs. roll your eyes if you must, but for me having shaved legs is a girly thing. i am not and have never been (save but for a few possible times) a "girly girl". shaving my legs is one of those things that makes me feel sexy and womanly. i don't generally give a damn about makeup, but hairy ass legs? aggghh. this trip also means no "sexy time" for at least the amount of time we are camping. i would love to say that given the degree of severe lack of hygiene that that wouldn't even be an issue but there will probably be some point along the trail where matt does something really sexy, like save my life from a rabid opossum, or keep me from falling off a cliff, or a million other clumsy things i can and will probably do to injure myself, and in these times, as gross as i am, i will still want to make "sexy time", because i just can't help but finding him sexy. he thinks that's weird, i don't.

ok, there is still plenty more to go on here, but i'm starting to get drowsy. i will not promise to be back at any certain time because i've already failed once on that. so let's just say....keep your fingers crossed. :)

oh, i also have a request. this semester i am taking a creative writing class. i have to write a short story for the first half of the semester and a poem for the second half. i haven't finished the story yet but i'm getting close. i am thinking about posting it to get some feed back. but more importantly when it comes time to turn in a poem i was thinking of submitting my poem "Girl". that's my unofficial title to the one and only poem i've posted on this blog. if you are so inclined, it is titled as one of my archives, thursday april 3rd(?, i already forgot, but that's at least close) it also starts by saying, whatever it's friday. then it goes into the poem, once there was a girl, any girl.... i am asking anyone who would be willing to take a moment to maybe read it and get back to me on it. i am a huge fan of constructive criticism, i am a big girl and would love to hear some honest feed back from people that i actually give a damn about before i submit something so personal to a class full of jackasses. if you take me up on this the things i would like you to look for are personal reactions, a little bit of grammer, a little bit of puncutation, and just an overall thought on it. i'm terrible with the grammer, spelling, and puncuation of things so if you feel like getting all down and dirty then i warn you your efforts are sadly wasted on me. that's what editors are for. :) but please, say or comment how you see fit.
so, i leave you now with a strong hope that i will be back much much sooner than the last time. if you are reading this, thank you.
Camille

So here's the thing, i could easily say i've been busy or that i haven't come up with anything to write about,...but, both would be a lie. part of it is that i've just been lazy, part is that i've gotten back into a relationship (which is time consuming, especially when you don't have internet at work!!!!!!), and part is because this is a horrible time of year for me and i've only kinda just now gotten my sense of humor back. i'd like to give a big shout out to Kristen, because i think we both know how awesome we are, it's just unfortunate that we don't have more time for our awesomeness to coinside.
Point is, i think i'm back. i've jotted down a few things that may be a bit dated by now, but i'm just gonna keep going with the whole, "i don't care if you don't care" attitude. and that is putting it nicely. i'm hoping that i'll be posting something new again every few weeks or so, but who knows this time of year.
hopefully more very soon.
and for some of you, see you at bigs tommorrow around 9ish.

A short list of things I have otherwise learned not to do after drinking,..yet continue to do regardless.

1. After getting home from a long night of drinking I find it a good idea to have at least one more(some times 2 if I haven't yet passed out) alcoholic beverage. It always turns out that this is a bad idea yet some how I always seem to not remember that. Weird.
2.Once or twice I may have "flipped the bitch switch" after too many drinks and had no clue what-so-ever that a "conversation" had taken place till put in the awkward position to explain myself the next day and wondering if that ment how I got home, how I got in this person's house, or worse what I ment by what I said the night before. ????????? crap.
3. Play volleyball on Sunday, although I was 99.9% sure I was going to vomit last Sunday, the fact of the matter is, I did not. And I totally rocked a badass serve against some oldies. Immediantley afterwards I went back to feeling like I might vomit. (Again though, I did not. Champ.)
4.DO NOT EVER try to clean up after your dog it's he/she has been sick and you have been out drinking. This just leads to a much bigger mess.
5.Bar time is 2am for a reason. If you can get to where you are going at or close to this time and get to bed within 30 min of arrival, after maybe eating some Ramen or leftover burrito/steak/week old whatever was in your fridge, whatever, then you are pretty much golden. If on the other hand you choose to stay up drinking and blogging, or watching a show on your DVR, or crying about god knows what because you're wasted, or doing drugs(which for the record I do not do. True statement.), or who knows what else. If you fail to make the appropriate bedtime and feel like you need to do nothing but sleep the next day, then wake up for a solid 45min before needing a nap, then indeed you broke bar time and things not to do after drinking. Drinker beware.
6. Addemdum to number 5, sexy time after 2 am is always ok, because as long as you're being active you won't feel bad the next day about that 2lb burrito you ate. And hey, you got laid.
:)

you there, waiting for a drink.

I realize that my blog is titled "Can I get you a drink?" I feel as if I should clarify where I got that title before i get to far along. The title is in reference to something my dad would always say whenever my sisters or i would bring a guy over, or really anyone who ever entered our house. he loved everyone and always made them feel welcome. however, this next segment is not about making people feel welcome, it's about the funny/stupid/annoying/painfully annoying/idiotic things people do while waiting for a drink at the bar or while ordering/paying for their drink. please do enjoy....


guy: can i get my tab?
me: yeah what's the last name on it?
guy: it's the one with the smiley face on it.
(i look at him with a "really? are you that fucking stupid to think i'm going to search through over 60 cards looking for your smiley face card mr. name i still don't know... but instead i say, with sterness)
me:really? i need a last name?(i want to punch him in the face a little, but then it turned out that he tipped really super well, so i forgave his silliness.)


girl:(pounding on bar when i'm seriously beyond busy) i've been waiting for over 30 minutes for a drink.
me:(i want to say, really have you been timing it? if so, let's see how long it takes for you to give up and go away. but i was really super busy so instead i just ignored her. i still don't know if she got her drink and i super don't care.)

me: do you want to just leave it open, there's a $10 limit on cards?
guy: no, go ahead and run it.
me: you're only at $6 dollars, i can't run it. not my rule sorry.
guy: no, run it, it's cool.
me: no, really i can't. and won't. buy a shot or something.
guy: can you just run my card?
me:(this is where i roll my eyes and walk away)

so, there are a ton more stories to tell, most probably better than these but i've worked 25 hours in 2 days with less than 6 hours sleep so i'll call this a to be continued...........

Dan passed the torch

So, what is probably not that big of a deal for most people for me has just turned into the event of the season. I'm making a mountain out of a mole hill here but hey I've always been creative. Just this past Tuesday I was having drinks with a friend and he told me that our other friend was probably not going to have his annual party because of low attendance. Well, I will admit that in all the many years I've been invited I have only attended once. 2005 I believe it was, and whilest I was only there a short time it turns out that it was quite memorable for myself and my now boyfriend whom at the time we didn't really talk but totally noticed each othere. But I digress. The party is the "Catholic School Kids Party" and it's open to anyone that I or Dan decide to invite. If I weren't me and reading this right now I know I'd be thinking, "Damn, what could I possibly do to get invited to such a prestigious event?" Well, I can't speak for Dan, but I know that I like Sam Adams Light, and beer in general. I'm pretty sure Dan is a fan of beer and fine whiskey, at least on the float trip he is :) Once I have more details to share the evites will be sent out accordingly. A heads up, uniforms are a must. Authentic is much prefered (cause it shows how hardcore and ligit you are) but not mandatory. But again I need to run all this by the godfather, Dan, before I get too ahead of myself. I leave you with that thought of hoping against hope that you can attend. I hope so too, because I really like Sam Adams Light, I'm not against bribes.
Yours in jest,
Camille